Thursday, June 14, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENDALL

I want to wish my nephew, Kendall a happy birthday today. He is my sister's son and a really great kid. He is a gifted athlete and excells at really any sport he has tried. He just finished his soccer season with a broken arm. Instead of soccer this fall he will start playing basketball. On top of this he is an excellant student. We are very proud of you Kendall have a great day.


This week has just flown by. I guess that is indicative of what the summer will be like, over before we know it. I love the summer. We have been so busy though that it really seems like my kids are still in school. I am still driving all over the place. To the horror of my teenage son, we get to stay home today. YEAH!! I love days like this. We don't have to be anywhere so if we do leave it will be because we chose to and we get to pick the place to go. I am going to go to Weight Watchers today. I have got to get back on track. I lost 20lbs and have put back on 9. So frustrating. I have the greatest leader her name is Jan and she really is very motivating. I think my failure in this area is due to selfishness. I want to eat what I want when I want it there is absolutely no self denial when it comes to my food choices. In a nut shell I know how to eat healthy but I choose the junk anyway. I really have at least 20 excuses but the bottom line is that none of them are valid. Any one with this same problem will understand that the cycle goes like this, happy to eat what I want when I am eating it...angry that I did, and beat myself up....so angry I will just eat again to ease the feelings....a couple of days of self control and then a reward for the self control FOOD. This is the thorn in my flesh and has been for years. Gluttony pure and simple. I know it is not the Lord's desire for me to live in this bondage or any bondage for that matter. I know that He can and will deliver me from this if but only if I am a willing participant so for now...This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it. ( and I will go to weight watchers and begin again)
Blessings

2 comments:

Kim said...

Oh dear, Linda...I can so relate to your food issues. I could have written the same thing word for word. I have lost and regained 60 lbs. 3 times in the last 15 years. I am following right in my mother's footsteps. It is so frustrating. I seem to succeed (at least temporarily) with the low-carb diets but always put it back on. I'm a lifetime member of Weight Watchers but have such a hard time limiting my portions, etc. Anyway, if I could just be obedient in this area of my life I too could succeed for good! Take care and enjoy your "free" day! Hugs ~ Kim

Anonymous said...

I I am enjoying reading,you wil be fine with weight watcher i believe it is a way of life and you will succeed hope you get this Mom God bless